I truly never thought I’d find someone quite like you. Someone who really treats me like a princess, and spoils me way too much. You’re absolutely adorable. If I had to choose one word to describe you; most definitely it would be adorable. You do all the things a girl wants her boyfriend to do.
You make me feel like the most important thing to you. Your ability to make me laugh is incredibly outrageous to me. I can be in the worst possible mood, and all you have to do is one little thing to make me smile. I sound so cliche. I’m reaching for all the words song artists have already used to describe this thing called love, because that’s all that’s left to say.
This is so real, the realest thing I’ve ever experienced. The realest love I’ve ever been in. You believe in my dreams.You believe in my dreams.You have no idea how much that means to me. You don’t want me to take the easy way out, you’re willing to wait for me; you’re willing to help me make these crazy dreams of mine come true. And that’s one of the many reasons I’m so in love with you.
8 days and I’ll be in those arms, wrapped up in your warmth, probably watching SVU reruns on the hotel’s TV. Probably kissing nonstop for hours, probably smiling at each other in between each kiss. You’ll probably have your hands on me, pulling me closer to you. And there we’ll be; completely content with one another.
It’s been forever since I’ve written or posted on here. I think falling in love last summer took a toll on my writing, considering that’s when I stopped. As spring semester comes to an end, relationships become tense, stressing over exams, projects, and finals becomes an everyday thing- it leaves me nothing else to do but write.
10:50pm: the boyfriends sleeping, the best friends aren’t quite a phone call away like they used to be, and working things out on my own is clearly not an option. My mind just keeps racing, faster and faster as I near the end of the semester; the beginning of the final stressful weeks.
All I want is to call him time after time, wake him up, make him understand this college thing, make him understand the decisions I’m forced to make right now. But he can’t. He’ll try, he’ll try damn hard to understand. But until he’s here, in my shoes, making these decisions, life decisions, he’ll never fully get it. He’ll never truly get it. God bless him for trying though.
I’ve never felt these feelings before. I’ve never been this happy. I cannot believe what an amazing, perfect, true gentleman I have found. Not only has his family instantaneously become my own, but he’s become part of mine just as fast. My dad and him will drink a few beers together and work on stuff, while my mother undoubtedly adores him for his true personality and the amount of respect he treats me with. No one in my entire life has ever treated me as good as he does. He believes in my dreams, he encourages me to think for myself and dream bigger than ever, and he assures me that he’ll always remain a part of those dreams, no matter where they may take me.
You wouldn’t ever be able to find a guy as nice, kindhearted, funny, handsome, loving, forgiving, or perfect as him. And there is absolutely nothing in this entire world that would ever make me change my mind about him. I no longer have to kid myself about the happiness I feel. Now it’s real. Now it’s what people talk about and what we see in movies. It’s the real thing. It’s complete and utter happiness.
You know what sucks; thinking back to us a few years ago- how unbelievably happy we were, how we each depended on each other and trusted one another. Now we’re fighting over things to give back and screaming and swearing every time we speak. It’s absolutely ridiculous how people act toward one another after a break up. We used to be in love with one another, and now we’re doing everything possible to break one another. It’s confusing, disgusting, and selfish. Now I’m not sitting here crying over how things used to be, or regretting the way things ended- I’m just sitting here as I gather your things and thinking how the hell it ended this harshly. How the hell did two people share so much love for one another and now show so much hate? I’m not asking for forgiveness, I’m not asking to be loved, I’m just asking for peace and civility. I’m asking for the name calling, rude texts, immaturity, and selfishness to cease. Maybe one day we’ll grow up and be able to have a real relationship with one another like we had. Because as of right now, our relationship is in shambles, and we’re acting like children over it.
